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What do I want?
         Who am I?
                 What is I?
                                                  I wish for a world I would like to live in.
I am limitless.
   I am magnificent.
      I am necessary.
I want to travel without direction.
I want others to learn compassion.
I want to feed others beyond the physical.
           I want others to bloom.
           I want to spread love.
I want to be appreciated.
I want to have an appetite for life/living.
I want to be recognized.
I want to be understood.
I want to write in a beautiful home.
I want to have a group of close, true friends/support.

I need to take care of myself.
   I need to figure out where/how I want to love on a daily basis.
I want to visit with all of my family soon.

I wish not to live by the monetary and social confines of this world.
I wish for the strength to carry on, move forward, light the world when giving up seems like the only logical option.

I like to believe I have some effect on this world
              each act of kindness
              each smile
              each hug
                          slowly chipping away at the steel-colored paint of hatred and indifference.
I want to create
           finger paint, sing, entertain, etc.
                  and not be afraid to share it with the world.
I want to remove fear and self-consciousness from myself and others

Part of me just wants to disappear because I already feel invisible and useless

Where does my self worth originate from?
                 "Achievements?" "Family?" What's the point?
                             Nothing is of any value and I'm no different.
                  everything I believe to be true comes from centuries of untruths, inculcations...
if I do nothing, useless; if I have routine, pointless
    anything I "achieve" means nothing in the end...
So then why do I care about what other people think?/are doing?/aren't doing?